ugh

times are tough for alot of people, and with true love and support from the selective few friends and family, anyone can get through them tough times.
It doesn't really help when so called friends talk shit behind your back and you just know it;s about you. It hurts but you know what I'm slowly learning that I just don't care anymore thats why they are so called friends and not real true friends. I have not talked to this person in quite sometime. I always get texts asking about stuff that doesn't really concern them. I don't care anymore. I share what I want to share on my blogs, and my facebook, myspace Extra. If there are things I don't want people to know then I simply do not let everyone know. I know where to draw the line. People should not judge others based on status messages. I think that is just ridiculous.
Anyway.. I am very happy with my life. nothing is perfect, nothing will ever be perfect. We all have bad days, we all have bad weeks.. Well, I had my fair share of a really bad 2 days this week but Life goes on. I do not care how much you are playing the system and for you to be proud of that and to announce that, is just beyound me..I do not care you cleaned YOUR OWN place. Was that very nessacry that you had to cap "MY OWN" no i don't think so but obviously you felt the need to point the fact out. Well guess what, you don't live my life and until you do don't judge it. You want my life, fine be my guess.. I will be you,.. I will be a loving mother to a beautiful little girl, and I'd tell your mom where to go too.. The only thing is, I wouldn't want your life due to the fact ALOT of people HATE,--DISLIKE you..
Only a selective few people don't like me and well some just don't like me cuz they wish they were me or wish they had something-someone I had or have.. Jealousy gets you no where in life.
I often envied my best friend, she always seemed soo happy, was always with the guys.. blah blah.. But you know in the end she finially found her true happiness, has 3 wonderful children, and I would not want to be her.. I am proud of her, I no longer envy the fact that I didn't have that. I wasn't ment to have that, to be heart broken, to be a mom at 18.. NONE OF THIS IS BAD!! IT just made her grow up faster then I would want to. IF that makes sence?
I like being her best friend, being there for her through everything and anything, being there for her to talk to, to hang out with, and just to be there. I enjoy every moment we get to share. I look forward for her to be there for me for my wedding. I look forward to having a child maybe at the same time she has another. I just look forward to her advice and help along the way since she's been through all that.
This is pretty much just babble.. I am just really fed up with crap with certain people. I want to just delete them off my pages and just forget about them. I will come the new year. Until then MERRY CHRISTMAS TO THE HATERS!! US LOVERS TO LOVE YOU!! (well maybe) lol..

I may not have "MY OWN" place to clean, but I don't care.. One day I will have my own place and it will be better then yours because it's MINE!! The fact that My FI and I worked hard to get it no matter if it's an apartment, a house, a mansion whatever, it will be OURS and I will be proud of that. Something is yours but yet you do not have to work for it. you pay like 20 bucks a month for rent, yea in that case, I would have my own place..

AAAAHHHHHHH
done vent...


Life goes on.. The new year will begin a GOOD new year.. Lots of planning to finially put together, after we do get our own place.. My parents will be moving out of state.. E and I will finially be on our own.. It won't be soo new to him, but it will be very very very much new to me.. I look forward to being able to decorate my very own place, and to plan my wedding with my girls and to go dress shopping, I look forward to the shopping the most.. I hope it all goes well. And of course trying to get the deposit down on the hotel by the end of May.. October will be here before we know it and it will be a year away.. OMGOSH!!! I can not wait.. I just pray things go well over the next few weeks and things will just be fantastic.. I will delete the haters and continue to love my life and my family and my best friend, my girls, and of course MY MAN!!!!!

Kentucky

I'm here in Kentucky the TRI State of the world hehe.. Spending time with my grandparents and my parents, and boyfriend. It's so peaceful here, no worries, no drama. Just PEACEFULL..
Enjoying every moment even if it seems boring... it's very percious to me to have my grandparents around.. They are 87 n 88, soon 88 n 89.. Been married 65 yrs July 5th.. I want that love always and forever.. A couple who briefly met, starting "courting" In April and married that July.. it's amazing!! they still share that special bond and love they did soo many years ago.. I just can't explain it.
I'm hoping to get pictures down near the river tomorrow, we leave tomorrow night/Thursday morning.. So we can be back home around 6pm Thursday evening.. Earl works at 9am Friday monring.. it's going to be a LONG day n night tomorrow.. Going to the crack barrel tomorrow evening for dinner and saying cya later.. or cya in July.. NOT GOOD BYE!! I don't ever want to say GOOD BYE TO MY GRANDPARENTS!!! I know no one ever wants to say that to anyone..
Sooo going to the great famous Golden Carrol once again today in about 2 hrs.. we've been there 2x's already going again today.. tryin not to snack on anything before we go and I'm tryin not to take a nap becuz i'll just be grouchy if I do...
Pics to come...
Back home Friday will start everything, more filling out apps, calling places, and offically signing up for Pampered Chef.. Anyone interested? Let me know.. if you want to go to a party or host a party..
I can use all the help you're willing to give and I'm sure you'd love to have all the free gifts you get for hosting!!


Theres been some things on my mind that been bothering me lately I just can't seem to be able to talk to him about it.. I mean I had mentioned it a few times but he probally thinks I'm joking around when I mention it.. It bugs me more and more some days then other days I don't think about it at all.. but Lately when it comes to mind it's very strong and I just don't know what to do to make myself realize it's not right yet and not going to happen..
I now need a job and we definitally need our own place.. and I really want to be married before it happens.. I think I'd regret it if it were to happen unplanned before marriage.. maybe not soo much if it were planned but I don't forsee it to be planned before we're married.. thats the right thing to do is wait til we are married and thats what I want!!
I just want it now.. I feel as if I'm being selffish when I feel like this and say this..
Maybe some can figure it out but I'm not going into it word for word..


ANYWAY.. thats about it..

OO yea to vent a little bit my mother is driving me NUTS!!!!
I'm a 120% daddy's girl and like 1% momma's girl.. if that.. She just seems to get worse and worse.. Thank God I have this time to spend with Earl...

OK LOTS OF LOVE!!


good luck and congrats to those who are out there reading this..


much love
BYES

changes are good

In the last 4 months things have changed for the better. I was out on medical leave from work.. to only go back for about 2 weeks and end up quiting for reasons that pile up.. mostly due to my pshycial ability to perform my job duties, I felt as if I couldn't do my best anymore and it was just time.. My hunny got a car, which means our next step will be getting our own place.. Planning a wedding and just thinking about even trying to save for our wedding is stressful.. but I know it comes with the terriorty of wedding planning/wanting....
Going to be signing up for Pampered Chef On Thursday or Friday of Next week.. We leave for Kentucky tomorrow night..
I am excited to get away for a week and to see my grandparents.. I have such a bad headache right now..
been looking for another job, filled out a few applications but going to try this out for a bit no hurry on anything if this goes well that is.. if not then back to job hunting at least if I do get a phone call down the line, I will try to continue doing PC as well as working.. I hope I can do this.. it sounds like alot..
I get to watch the Duggers tonight :-d Josh's wife's takin a HPTest ahaha :-d
I'm sure many out there know the show 18 kids and counting!! I LOVE IT!!

ooo I saw FireProff it was AWESOME... very very meaningful... I will make Earl watch it again later he watched it this time with me but I'll have him watch Facing the giants and FireProff later own again before we get married..

soo what else? not in much pain anymore thank goodness. had 3 shots, they are relieving pain I know I still have hernaited discs but not in as much pain which is great and I can move and be myself again.. thats another good thing about doing Pampered Chef I make my own hours realy and it's only maybe 3 hrs 3-4 nights a week if that.. I can't wait for our own place, We really need to get away from here.. people are making me upset counting on Earl and I to do this and that and if he doesn't do it, and more then likely I'm not doing it.. it just will not get done..
o well, I would love to know whats going to happen when Earl and I are in Kentucky for the next week and the dishes pile up in the sink and the garbage isn't taken out.. I'd like to know what will happen then.. but only time will tell.. they will realize Earl's the only one that does this stuff.. and I help with the dishes....I was doing them ALL THE TIME for a while, and while i was in pain at that.. then I just boycotted them cuz NO ONE was helping.. soo forget it.. soo pretty much since that I done them a few times, however especially since I been back to work (besides quiting) I only did them, helping Earl while doing them or did them while Earl took the trash out or something... they are piling up downstairs others were in the house today that won't bother and Earl and I were out doing what we needed to do..

AAHH I could go on and on.. VENTING thats what this is for right?

anyway..
show is set to be May 14th still figuring out a time and place..
signing up for sure next week.. Birthday in 2 weeks..
and will have a mini kit by then soo I can get started.. Wish me luck and THANK YOU ALL..
Comments welcome.......