ugh

times are tough for alot of people, and with true love and support from the selective few friends and family, anyone can get through them tough times.
It doesn't really help when so called friends talk shit behind your back and you just know it;s about you. It hurts but you know what I'm slowly learning that I just don't care anymore thats why they are so called friends and not real true friends. I have not talked to this person in quite sometime. I always get texts asking about stuff that doesn't really concern them. I don't care anymore. I share what I want to share on my blogs, and my facebook, myspace Extra. If there are things I don't want people to know then I simply do not let everyone know. I know where to draw the line. People should not judge others based on status messages. I think that is just ridiculous.
Anyway.. I am very happy with my life. nothing is perfect, nothing will ever be perfect. We all have bad days, we all have bad weeks.. Well, I had my fair share of a really bad 2 days this week but Life goes on. I do not care how much you are playing the system and for you to be proud of that and to announce that, is just beyound me..I do not care you cleaned YOUR OWN place. Was that very nessacry that you had to cap "MY OWN" no i don't think so but obviously you felt the need to point the fact out. Well guess what, you don't live my life and until you do don't judge it. You want my life, fine be my guess.. I will be you,.. I will be a loving mother to a beautiful little girl, and I'd tell your mom where to go too.. The only thing is, I wouldn't want your life due to the fact ALOT of people HATE,--DISLIKE you..
Only a selective few people don't like me and well some just don't like me cuz they wish they were me or wish they had something-someone I had or have.. Jealousy gets you no where in life.
I often envied my best friend, she always seemed soo happy, was always with the guys.. blah blah.. But you know in the end she finially found her true happiness, has 3 wonderful children, and I would not want to be her.. I am proud of her, I no longer envy the fact that I didn't have that. I wasn't ment to have that, to be heart broken, to be a mom at 18.. NONE OF THIS IS BAD!! IT just made her grow up faster then I would want to. IF that makes sence?
I like being her best friend, being there for her through everything and anything, being there for her to talk to, to hang out with, and just to be there. I enjoy every moment we get to share. I look forward for her to be there for me for my wedding. I look forward to having a child maybe at the same time she has another. I just look forward to her advice and help along the way since she's been through all that.
This is pretty much just babble.. I am just really fed up with crap with certain people. I want to just delete them off my pages and just forget about them. I will come the new year. Until then MERRY CHRISTMAS TO THE HATERS!! US LOVERS TO LOVE YOU!! (well maybe) lol..

I may not have "MY OWN" place to clean, but I don't care.. One day I will have my own place and it will be better then yours because it's MINE!! The fact that My FI and I worked hard to get it no matter if it's an apartment, a house, a mansion whatever, it will be OURS and I will be proud of that. Something is yours but yet you do not have to work for it. you pay like 20 bucks a month for rent, yea in that case, I would have my own place..

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done vent...


Life goes on.. The new year will begin a GOOD new year.. Lots of planning to finially put together, after we do get our own place.. My parents will be moving out of state.. E and I will finially be on our own.. It won't be soo new to him, but it will be very very very much new to me.. I look forward to being able to decorate my very own place, and to plan my wedding with my girls and to go dress shopping, I look forward to the shopping the most.. I hope it all goes well. And of course trying to get the deposit down on the hotel by the end of May.. October will be here before we know it and it will be a year away.. OMGOSH!!! I can not wait.. I just pray things go well over the next few weeks and things will just be fantastic.. I will delete the haters and continue to love my life and my family and my best friend, my girls, and of course MY MAN!!!!!